emotional junkshop

when i don't ask, it's not always because i don't care

most of the time,

i don't ask because it's better to leave things as confusing as they are.

i have learned,

that the answers that you get from confusing situations often hurt,

so it's better pretending as long as we can.

so, go on

let us go deceive each other while we can.

we lie our way to the truth because it's the only way we know how.

until then, we are okey.

we will be fine.

in the meantime.

yeah you know how we're gonna die, baby. we're gonna crash and burn. -overheard from the radio

nonsensical wishes

i wish more people would wear flip flops, so there would be more people with cleaner toenails.

i wish everyone walks more, so we save more fuel and we would know more about what's going on in the streets.

i wish people would promise less, so there would be lesser promises to break.

i wish everyone has earphones, so no one has to use loud speakers in public places because not everyone likes Lady Gaga.

i wish old people would be treated better.

i wish we start loving each other just because, without having to answer 'why' all the time.

i wish everyone would find joys in the simplicity of things, like the feel of the sand against the feet.

i wish people would value the conversation more during coffee and not just the wi-fi in the coffee shop.

i wish people would learn to tell lesser lies.

i wish we all go back to reading and spend less time online.

i wish people would stop telling me "everything is okey," when it isn't.

if only i knew what i know now.

just today, i was told i am smart.

so he asked, "when can i see you again?"

i said, "i don't know. see? i am not as smart as you think i am. there are a lot of things i don't know about." i said this laughing.

then he asked what i know about love.

i said i know none.

suddenly, we were both serious.

and i went on explaining. "everything you know about love, you unlearn when you start falling. you unlearn everything until you are left with absolutely nothing."

then silently, he added, "yes. so why don't we reeducate ourselves together?"